Dramatically exposed

Shopping

2012-03-04T20:55:00.001-08:00

Finally, after reciveing my First Pay. I decided to go shopping for new clothes. My sister decided to follow me after much convincing. We shopped at Jurong Point. I bought 3 tops which costs $69.90.I told my sister not to look at prices but just take whatever she wants. I feel proud of myself that at least I've earnd money on my own and use it to spend on my love ones. That was the first hard earn spendage I'll never forget. We ate the most expensive ice cream, chocolate, MACROONS(like finailly!!!!!! Awesome I tell you just AWESOME) and a pouch for her hp. She wanted a braclete but did not know where the shop was located -.- lol. It felt good seeing how happy she was. We'll surely do this again next month when I get my second payment. and of course I can't wait for to spend it on my friends as well:)

Again Dad, you were the reason why I'm living life to the fullest without worries. I can't thank you enough, Make sure I'll make you proud.:) I guess this is the start of new amazing beginnings...

AND not forgetting, to those Mother fuckers out there who constantly just love bringing us down, you can KISS MA ASS. because, I'm still smiling and laughing like there's no tomorrow.

First Pay

2012-03-01T02:08:00.002-08:00

I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY! Today I got my first PAY! It says $800.00 to Cheng Tania!^^ ooooooooooooooh maaa gooooood!! hehehehehehe!!
Mr Jaya scared the fuck outta me! He said he's paying me $1000 so I better learn fast. LOL-.- anyhow make high hopes for me LOL!Shall start taking law courses.. fucking scared.. Clients are giving us a hard time. sigh... shall buy me a new hp, samsung gallexy or Iphone??:)

And then just when I thought everythings gonna turn out just fine, this CUNT had to ruin my day! STUPID BITCH! I was left all alone to take care of the office, the other collegue had something to do. so I texted her to come up as I haven't had my lunch. it was ord 2.30pm-.-. and she blew up and show me attudiude saying that I didn't wanna learn-.- I was putting cheques in fucker. whatever la, dun give a fuck about u.
who cares, I got ma cheque anyways..:)

Jerk

2012-02-29T19:53:00.000-08:00

See, I am not the only girl who feels you do not care. Even your latest edition thinks you don't. Know what's your problem? You don't text her everyday and fast enough, she has to put in the effort ALL the FREAKING time... it's suppose to be the other way round. Your reasos are rubbish. If you keep this up, you're gonna have a life cycle of breaking up and finding a new one. The best part is that you always ask yourself, why this is happening to you. OPEN your eyes dumb ass. One find fucking day, a girl is gonna give you her shit the way you treated previous ones. Then we'll see who has the last laugh.

Wanna bet? If you last at least 2 years in your new found relationship, I swear I'll start respecting you and take back all my words about you.

If you failed to achieve it, you better FUCK OFF and stay SINGLE till the day you get an arranged marriage.

If you don't wanna bet, LABEL yourself as a COWARD on your forhead and show it to the world.

THANK YOU!

Sorry is all I can say.

2012-02-27T23:17:00.003-08:00

Dear Faris,

How I wish I had the courage to tell you this.
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I'm sorry, I did not continue texting you our "goodnights" and "good mornings" everyday. Most of all, sorry for not saying I love you all the time... I'm saying all these it's because I saw your previous tweets and feel guilty for not getting the facts right. Really Faris? was I really special to you? Were you really waiting for me that long? I was waiting equally long as you were... You didn't bother to text me, I just felt like you weren't committed. I felt you were giving up on me and playing around. I thought you never really cared. I was confused and hurt, I cried queitly. You weren't there to comfort me.

It's funny how, we didn't mention about a break up, but knew it was over. I guess that's the meaning of gut instincts in love. I wish we had another chance.

All I can say is that I'm sorry, it was my mistake for giving up on us.
It's too late now as I see you have moved on. They say set your heart free, if it comes back, it's yours, if it does not, It was never meant to be. I guess it was never meant to be the way we've imagined. I wish you all the best with your new love. Hope you last long and treasure her like there's no tomorrow. Thank you for at least letting me feel the meaning of love for the first time. Thank you for hugging me tight and saying you'll miss me after our "dates" out.

I'm glad I met you. I never regretted being with you even though it was just for awhile.
"Nevermine I'll fine someone like you, You've been nothing but the best."-Adele

Goodbye Faris.

23-02-12 GRAD AND PROM

2012-02-27T02:18:00.007-08:00

(This is the most girlish template I've ever edited.. yucks. but this is just for now.) anyways, On the 23rd of feburary 2012, we finally graduated from ITE. Just 2 years ago, I was accepted by Vid, audio Production, slowly learning the subjects. Time runs without our knowledge, now We are in our grad attire, awaiting the ceremony to commence. I've learnt alot there, especially about LIFE. Time flies, people change. Today a new chapter unfolds creating a new journey ahead. Glad ma Friends and Family were by me when I needed them. Thank you. God bless. Totally loving the pictures.

As for PROM, I can't find the words to describe it. I had an awesome night. Never regretted coming home late. Thanks to Dina and Kai, I've managed to persuade ma over protective Dad. Of course, thanks Daddy, you're the reason why I appear for PROM:) Thank you pees, for making ma night awesome as ever. best night I'll never forget!

PS.Hope we'll see each other soon. ^^
PS.You have no fucking idea how long it took me to post this.;P

Ayya Pooja

2012-02-12T20:10:00.000-08:00

On saturday, we had our Ayya Pooja. We prepared a big feast and set it on the table for him to arrive and feast! He was extremely happy, danced happily. Ayya saw the food and nodded his head, we all clapped and shouted for him to come and eat!

I want to thank him for giving me a good life. I knew it all along... Ayya told me that, no matter what, be it menses, you can still pray and carry milk for ANY god. It's just how you think. It all depends on your inner soul and heart(clean). I'm extremely happy, that was the 1st time I saw how happy he was. The first time he mixed all the food tgt to eat with us.

I thought I saw him open his eyes a little, It was all black no whites at all. and from close up, he looks like a total different person. scary. Since Ayya was sitted, we were also allowed to sit near him to talk. I had a great talk with him. Very wise old man, respected alot. I'll make sure I'll carry milk, and contiue to pray no matter what.

Thank you Ayya.:)

4th day

2012-02-02T20:53:00.000-08:00

Ma 4th day of working life. Today, is sortta rest day(not so much of work). Basically every fri is like a rest day. The Working life is extremely hard to cope with, now I know how my uncle feels after working long hours. In my previous blog post I didn't describe the job. It's fucking law firm and I'm dying everyday to keep up with the pace. I got my 1st office keys which had a hard time opening the doors yesterday morning lol! I told the previous law firm lady, she LOL! I got to do my 1st recipet invoices and letter for clients in criminal cases. I'm slowly starting to get the hang of it.

Guess I'll follow what my uncle wants me to do:LAW. sigh...I dunno what to do anymore LOL.
It's fun to know the secrets of your clients:) My side deals with divorces and criminal cases. other colleuge deals with civil and defense cases. hope to keep up the good work~

P.S TIRED SIAK, STILL NOT USE TO IT...BYE LUNCH TIME LIAO.

Working life

2012-01-31T22:09:00.000-08:00

ma uncle got me this job. It's ma 3rd day and I'm not liking it at all... The previous lady who is suppose to teach me everything is not here. I am new, how can you just teach me for two days only and expect everything thing to go into ma head? I've no experince in this job at all. Now I understand why employers want to see you based on your education level and experinces. I don't even understand the terms, documents and cases their are doing! LOL! I should have studied harder in secondary school so as to attain o levels... I regretted not being able to pay for the o lv english examinations during ma ITE days. I will have to take night courses relating to this job or I'll never understand anything at all.

quiet happy that ma uncle was trying his level best to find me a job when I did not do well for ITE. Ma god says, I'm always in his mind on where I should go, what career I should do. I just wanna say "thank you dad, for everything, I appreciate it". I'll never forget this.

The people here in the office are very friendly, funny and helpful! My sir is a short tempered man, but he forgets your mistakes easily, he's heart is clean no bad intentions at all. I'm like so sotong in the job, surely will get alot of scoldings. His daughter looks excatly like him, only that she's a female version. LOL. Ma sir is the lawyer who dealt with our custody case. Anyways, I just hope I'll get the hang of it asap. all the best to me!:)

especially for you

2012-01-03T04:33:00.000-08:00

Dear Kai,

This is especially for you. I want to wish you a HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY and a HAPPY NEW YEAR! you're special cause you are like a no 1 baby on the start of the new year who brings joy and laughter! I would like to tell you that, you have been the best part of my life, I will never want to erase you from ma memory because you've done so much. I appreciate everything you've done, you don't know how much it means to me.

I'm thankful for all you have done, thank you for sharing everything with me. thank you for everything.

I would like to apologize for not coming for your birthday celebrations as ma parents did not allow me to go out. I am really sorry. I tried every means and ways to convince them. I know you'll hate me for life for not attending your celebration, because deep down I'm feeling guilty. You might think that how come at this age, I still can't go out. I'm sorry again but this is just how strict and controlled they are.

I hope you are not mad at me especially, Irfanah and Dina cause they planned it and told me about it. I hope you 3 still regard me as friend.

Thank you for everything!
Sorry for not being a perfect friend.

truth hurts ,oh well:)

2011-12-10T01:31:00.000-08:00

Wow finally! I've heard the truth. it hurts. I can't believe you would say such things about us to your sister over the phone. "if ma husband dies, I won't be responsible in taking care of the 2 girls, I'll only take care of ma own son."

I always tell myself, no Tania, she loves you just like her own. even ma friends told me so when I was crying the other day over your unfairness. just a simple question: Then why did you wanna take us in during the funeral? If you are able to answer that, I would STFU, stop wasting ma time and pack up and leave here asap. out of your life forever. if that makes you happy, I'll do that. ma eyes were swollen red because of crying the whole night not being able to sleep. What kind of a mother are you? OH crap sorry! I've totally forgotten, I'm not your bio logical daughter! oh gosh, how stupid can I be? BINGO, If this was a casino with questionares about you, I would've won A MILLION bucks by now.

If you think we were gonna be such heavy burdens over your shoulders in the first place, you should've just left us in the streets to beg for money. I'll rather do that, then forever live with lies. I just feel like laughing to ma friends and telling them "I told you so". When the day comes, I'm gonna set up an award ceremony just for you. Thank you so much we appreciate everything you've done!

Yours sincerly,
Orphans:) weeeeee~

Grad speech!

2011-12-10T01:12:00.000-08:00

This is a personal advanced grad speech:

Good afternoon! I would love to thank ma family especially ma step parents for always NEVER failing to look DOWN on me, not bothering when I was down and stressed. Always telling me, when ma results come, the whip will be used on me. Not bothering about ma final film, whether it was ready to be watched and not giving a fuck to ask about it either. Thank you for not allowing me to follow ma dreams next year, thank you for fucking with me, thank you for using me as your house maid, thank you for treating me like a nobody. Thank you! I appericate every fucking shit! one more thing, I apologize as I'm not as intelligent as your own! thank you! *bows* -round of applause-

vasi A.K.A Boo boo

2011-12-06T07:48:00.000-08:00

He's the cutest thing alive in our house awwww!! Just feel like squeezing him everyday!! sooo furry and soft!! when he grows older, looks magnificant!:) MA boo boo!

Just keep moving

2011-11-30T09:51:00.000-08:00

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wow, it's decemeber already. time files fast, things change, people change fast.

This whole year, all the shits I've to put up with ma foster family makes me realize one thing, family is important. yes, I think I've been screwed all over by them, but I've learnt to treasure ma biological sister even more. I realize that this is who they are, strict, if you make a mistake you're done for. This is to be poised and disciplined, they just want the best for me and ma life. I understand. Know what, I don't wanna cry for such small matters anymore because it's a waste of ma time and tears. I'm just gonna follow whatever I'm supposed to do, it's only making me stronger. guess what, despite all that, I'm still laughing and smiling! because I enjoy the little things in life. I'll make sure, I'll keep smiling ahead and keep moving forward. That's the way to keep going in life.

I cannot let one small thing bring me down so easily. being down all the time doesn't help, just gotta "laugh" it's cheap medication!:) that's the old Tania I know!:)
one more thing, I'll make sure I'll find ways and means to pursue what I dream to do in future, because no one owns me, no one owns ma life, this is MINE. NO ONE WILL stop me. :)

Today, laughed ma ass off because of ma sister, puppy Vasi A.K.A Booboo and the movie "WHITE CHICKS" LOOOOL!

Awesome day

2011-11-26T20:39:00.000-08:00

Last Friday night was an awesome one! I watch BREAKING DAWN with ma friends! No words can describe the movie, I was just blown away... each time a terrible thing happen, I would be right at the edge of ma seat. I felt like I was part of the movie, like I was in the wedding, always imagined myself being that Bella girl lol. I know it sounds weird coming from me, but I've to admit: BREAKING DAWN was worth the time, never regretted watching at all! hats off to the effects, awesome make up of how bella became to thin. Initially, I was all for Jacob's team because of he's hot abs, lol. After watching the whole series I think I've moved to Edward's team! never thought I'll be a fan at all. I hope we'll find time for each other to go watch PART 2 of BREAKING DAWN!!! OH MA GOSH~ I DID IT AGAIN~ HAHAHA! can't wait can't wait!!!^^

love you guys! Friday night from katy perry suits us all!

I'm smiling

2011-11-22T05:49:00.001-08:00

hiyee, 1st of all, I wanna apologise for destroying all of your last day of school. I wanted it to be noisy, retarded and retarded. whatever it is, I can't be bothered anymore. I'm just looking forward to our movie this friday(BREAKING DAWN)OMG!!!!!! And and, zoooooo! with Irfanah's help. sooooooooooo exicting. wow I'm proud that we have at least something to do with each other and not let it go to waste.^^ it's because of you all I'm smiling like a fool, THANK YOU, ILY MANY MANY!

PS.Faris chat with me today in facebook... weird much... lol. I don't care, he's just ma friend ok? ok? there's nothing between us just friendship! :P CHEERS!
Major dish.

Go away

2011-11-22T05:44:00.000-08:00

I can't believe today ma dad wasted ma tears... seriously, you just love hurting me for nothing right. well you've SCORED A*, CONGRATS. WTF is your problem? You said mom was upset not asking her about the outing thingy? guess what she wasn't even pissed about that shit. I don't understand what I did wrong, or was it all just for fun?

both of you just don't understand how unfair we are being treated. I feel like screaming and pulling out all ma hair in front of you. really, if I was freaking rebellious I would've walked out the door and never come back, but I respect you and keep quiet all the god damned fucking time. Sometimes, Mom, you're like the twin of ma teacher, you don't know WTF you're talking about. Most of the time jumping into conclusion and yelling at everyone. ANYONE, would put on a black face if being scolded. you want me to smile? seriously? Cutting myself is a sin to your son and yourself that's what you shouted. first of all, you scolded us at the wrong time, saying about ma biological mother not teaching me. I HATE THE FACT THAT U BRING UP MA MOTHER!! ANYONE with the fucking right mind would not do that when the child's mother is DECEASED! sometimes I wonder if you really wanted to bring us in whole heartedly or just to put 2 free maids in your house. You want us to do EVERYTHING ever since we came here. your son love saying hurtful words...

you would disappear together with your son on saturdays sometimes, and Ma sister and I have to clean the ENITRE SHIT.When I'm stressed with ma school projects, best, you scold me. I've explain everything I could, but you still don't understand a single shit. The least u could do is advice and encourage me! love looking down on me, because I went to ITE. always give me that" sure fail one" face. no encouragment,YOUR WORDS: "Go to navy, don't waste your time, you'll earn alot".I HATE THAT SHIT! FUCK OFF!_|_

MA FKIN POINT IS(if you still don't get it) you treat us differently.

Cheers!

2011-11-21T05:30:00.000-08:00

Domo Gallery

Finally! everything for our FYP is over! We girls went through lots of shit and stress together. Each and every moment is a memory that I'll never forgot. all of your hardwork paid off, you all deserve the BIGGEST thank you and hug anyone can get. I've learnt that guys who work with you are just fucking gays and some teachers just don't know where they stand, talk or do things. I've cried, screamed,hurt...I've learnt to laugh and smile a lot even in stressful times, that's the way to relive yourself. Well I don't give a shit now! because it's freaking OVER!

NO MATTER WHAT, smile and show them that you can do it, don't let anyone bring you down. That's what Kai has taught me. When you think you've done a lot, but people just wanna blame you, stand up and speak for yourself. that's what Dina has taught me. Irfanah, you're just awesome in your own way! keep smiling! I love yaw. I'll make sure we'll still stay in touch for the many years to come!
PS. Can't wait for grad day and PROM NIGHT! PARTY WITH YAW all night LOOOONG!!!!

Cheers to the FREAKING weekend!!<3

BITCH

2011-11-18T07:30:00.000-08:00

Hi cunt, I hope after graduation I can give you a list of valguraties. Different language, it's gonna be a gift for "WONDERFUL" memories you've left behind. really, am I that dumb. Who the fuck do you take me for. I am only HUMAN. a mother fucker like you wouldn't understand that. I think you've got split personality seriously. one moment you're calm and happy, the next you're a bitch with a black face. know what I'm really tired, had enough of all your nonsense. I cannot be bothered anymore, I dunno WTF you're talking about anymore. instead of encouraging you pull each and everyone of us. call yourself a counselor. JUST A FEW MORE WEEKS AND WE CAN FUCKING GRADUATE!!!!!!!!!! AND we are all FREEEEEEEEEEEEEE! endure just endure.... telling myself that every time ma day starts....

The joy

2011-11-15T07:51:00.000-08:00

just a month to go... and we will be off and away from this course. and I'll be going to navy.. happy that ma lil brother looks up to me saying that: " I'm gonna have a navy officer in ma house soon"... what an encouragement sooo cute lol. But I've learnt alot from this course... how time is a big value. I always tell maself not to worry, you'll have a bright future ahead of you, marry, have kids, retire, enjoy life....still have a long long way to go... sometimes I just feel that ma parents want me to do what they like. it's unfair, but to make them happy, I follow because ma head tells me " they took you in rmb?" I don't care whatever it is I just wanna have fun at ma age before I regret anything... today ma 3 pigs made ma day by being retarded fools LOL. I'm just filled with smiles and laughter now.:)

Don't ever say that we'll be apart, I'm sure we'll see each other in our lifes often. cause I'll never wanna leave all of your world. every sec is a higlight.
PS. Unless you dun want me in your life LOL.^^

in love with this song, domino and Abracadabra by Jesse J

Grrrrrrr!

2011-11-08T08:11:00.000-08:00

I seriously regretted telling ma dad about our re shoot! He's so over protective and paranoid! o.m.g just like his sister! Dad I've got this to tell you: you are watching too much of vasantham programs sheesh! I know you'll scared something might happen to me like in the movies... I just want you to understand that I'm out at night to do work not for fun. Why won't you understand? Teacher made me feel like fuck today, you too. I just dunno how I'm gonna deal with you both tmr cause I can predict a hell lot of drama's gonna happen. Seriously, that HK trip had long gone been dealt with, why are you bringing it up again after so long?? what's your motive? ohhh money KA-CHING BINGO... yeah was too dumb to fig it out.

Ms seriously, the way you talk to me is like a slutty cunt. I wish this was a movie so I can slap your fking face a 10000000 times. I have bad times too, everyone has them, not only you. So don't tell me this is the wrong time. You put it in a way that I bring you so much mess. Well guess what, I'm not a saint from heaven. I'm HUMAN: find the meaning in the dictionary ok? mother fucker I'm bottling up all ma anger, just don't make it pop, I swear what you'll hear tmr wouldn't be nice and I don't fkin care if it's in front of dad.

sortta "drunk night"

2011-11-07T02:18:00.000-08:00

so I forgot to update about sat's thing LOL... was drunk<< you'll understand. Last sat, after her death anniversary prayers, we went to our family friend's baby naming ceremony. The place was fuggin awesome! Chinatown, Chinese hotel restaurant. I thought it was gonna be a normal dinner or something.. but turns out it has 2 starter, 8 course and dessert... The beginning started out perfectly, the waiter was giving out wine glasses, and ma dad said: there one more for her, 18 ord wat!" LOL I was LIKE REALLY REALLY! PEACE FATHER PEACE! >:P there's this time when I ate the crispy pork's skin, then took in the meat.....

after I ate everything THEN only the waiter or whoever's son of a gun said that the flesh is not yet cook only the skin. And I gave that narrow eye stare and imagine how long I've produced tape worms inside me... sheesh! so i drank up 1st glass of wine, went toilet.. came back it was refilled again drank it all up... ma parents said I look like a drunkard LOL! but really I felt dizzy and sleepy.. it was fkin bitter... guess ma strength isn't that good... lol! Seriously the dinner waas worthy cause it was for free. LOL. best part was, ma dad said aiya see ur face, can't take wine la no power, next time try the other beer la! but ma mom was like giving that " if u ever drink again I'll murder u" LOOL. lol sooooooooooo who cares it was a HINT to drink again some time!! >:P

When we got home I felt really dizzy, Ma walking style was awesome, if u know what I mean:)
PS. The baby is freakin tiny and CUTE PEACE!

small girl

2011-11-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

Gosh I'm so happy we got a long rest ahead... and I love today cause it didn't go to waste, yup met ma sec school friend, to help her out. so fun finally we keep meeting each other despite our crazy hectic shedule! been a loong time:)

If you ever read this post, just wanna let you know:
Don't ever stress yourself for small things it's not worthy. Don't ever ever cry, cause one thing I've learnt is to stay strong. yes they may say crying doesn't mean you're weak...but staying strong keeps you going in life. lol small underage girl that is an 18 year old girl, laugh and smile because you can. don't always look down on all the bad things in life, it just makes ur day gloomy... I don't like to see ma friends sad, especially you. You get stressed easily. I understand that ur working, studying and having health issues. Wanna let you know that whatever probs you have>>>> I'M HERE^^ Soooo STAY STRONG and relax, you're always like so stiff not budging chill chill just a few weeks and you're away from school!^^ Aaaaand We can go out again to enjoy and have fun, rmb we used to have mars balls, I wanna eat that again craving fro macroons tooo:(((((( all the best!

LOOL

2011-10-31T06:54:00.000-07:00

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL dunno why but I just feel like laughing and laughing ma ass off!!! LOL!!! I can't help but laugh till I cry!! LOL~~~~~ I need to start praying often... I dreamt I had brain cancer.. and fear I might die soon, dreamt had a fight with ma mother, and it happened...:(
and there's something wrong with ma laptop it keeps switchin off by itself! annoying I gotta bring it to the repair shop soon! sheesh! stupid lappy!!! JUST FEEL LIKE ROFL TODAY! lol lol lol lol lol lol!!!! hahahahaah!!! and I dreamt a werid dream about feeding whales T.T LOOOOOL...

Hello!

2011-10-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

Hello! peeeee! This is for you! personally for you.. read your blog and I don't feel one bit offended!:D ok I personally didn't mean to say your dumb or hurt you.. Actually to be honest you're not dumb at all. just playing and messing with ya... rmb the marketing idea you showed out? well I was really blown away by that cause I've never thought about it. Sometimes you can crack puzzles which some of us can't... and you're ord gaining experince form working as a waitress! taking "O" level exams somemore. I'm proud to have a friend like you juggling so many things in one goal... so what if your cousins and realtives are all in poly or JC? Who cares! I think you're waaay brilliant then any of them,and please don't try to deny the fact. Stop having low self esteem, it doesn't help if you think all negative thoughts about yourself... I apologize if you feel hurt because I swear I didn't mean those playful things... Just being playful... sorry:( hope you smile more like what made you smile just now in the text I sent you lol about him ok? I don't like to see you sad not nice! ILY

Dad

2011-10-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

I feel horribly disturbed by looking at ma dad in the ICU today... he looks so terribly poked everywhere.. so poor thing can only drink juices(clean feats only):( Ma mother told us what happened yesterday morning at around 3am... he was suddenly so violent, waking up and pushing everything away. The doctor said, ma dad was screaming that he wanted to go out there and take a walk, pointing out the window. sticking out his tongue at the doctor.. At 1st she thought he was playing a fool and acting, but he got even violent, there were nearly half the staff nurses and doctors in his ICU room!! holding him and pinning him down while injecting amnesia fluid to let him sleep. until then he will not know who his loved ones are.. for awhile everything was going fine until he stopped breathing due to insufficent oxygen going into the brain. :( Ma mom started crying and she was sick at the same time... So the doctor pump in oxygen for him the whole night to revive him... (inserting many tubes into his mouth) thank GOD he started breathing again the next day!!! THANK YOU GOD! He's suffering from sore throat due to the tube, barely talks... I visited him today, luckliy I brought ma storybook along beacuse I know I'll cry... Trying to fight the tears coming out... hope you recover soon dad!!:)

awesome start!

2011-10-03T06:58:00.000-07:00

Altough this photo was a long time ago but it just shows a retarded memory of how crazy we really are and why we always can't stop giggling>>>>> the giggling gals^^

WOW WOW! what an awesome freaking start! morning we started laughing like we own the WHOLE SCHOOL! feels soooooooooo lively and happy! This is why I miss three pees so much! wonderful, u guys just know how to make a person like me feel happy inside out, laughing and laughing like some retarded seal clapping LOL! aiyoooo can't stand u all! stomach hurts, wanna pee also cannot do it in peace ROFL! dirty thoughts, dot dot moments and adnormal moments!! all this will be memories that's too priceless^^

And lastly I've always wanted to say these things to you guys but never had the chance...

I'm really sorry if u felt annoyed at the fact that we bully u it was just for fun, and I'm saying this because I actually feel guilty hiding ur bag in mine:( LOL sorry..^^ I'm sure ur'll find ya slip somehow! don't be pissed at not finding it ok? chill I'll get u whatever makes u happy tmr lol! you are smart(I mean it this time) and flawless, so what if he has a gf and ignores u lol. Tonight I shall dream a handsome bf for you lol! AND hope it comes true with motorbike! HAHA like some package!You're always there for me. ILY!

Don't mean to irritate u more but just wanna say that whatever or whoever is making u annoyed shouldn't stand in ur way. know why their doing this to you? it's because their jealous at how happy you are despite the troubles they give you. She's a bitch and will always be one, a real fucked up one sorry lol! so why should you care so much and waste ur time on bitches who don't give a shit on you? leave it, walk away! They think you're better then them:) I , no we all are so proud at how far u've come and changed in a good way. I'll buy you chocolate tmr! You've made me feel myself! ILY!

YOU! I know how u feel about closest friends not telling u anything truthful.. and keeping it from you. I've been in that situation before. I really hope to not see you emo cause I don't like it. I just don't like seeing you sad. it's so not you, where's the gal that shakes a head like a ghetto bitch and says uh huh! hahaha! I will be there for you, that I promise. I'll promise you'll never have to face problems alone! you are a perfect young beauty. Don't let little things bring you down, it's not worthy. When u're sad always look in the mirror and say" damn I'm really CUTE! but don't make it a habit, know why? I'll tell you when u read this, jjk ar don't emo^^ aaaaand I'll buy u dark chocolate to cheer u up ILY!

true

2011-10-02T05:50:00.000-07:00

YOU all is what I call true, a friend which has never been so great and trustworthy, a friend who went through shit with me, despite the shit I gave you, you still acknowledged me as a "friend". YOU will always be remembered and I'm extremely honored to have met you all. I greatly appreciate you for what you've done for me. I'll never do anything to hurt you at all, that I can promise, It'll never be a lie. I swear. I'll make sure you all are extremely appreciated. I would love to tell you that God has given me a gift. I am blessed to have such wonderful people. Thank you. No words, no book and no dictionary can ever describe people like you all. People do take advantage of yaw and sometimes hurt deeply. Don't get troubled by the small things in life, it doesn't matter what people think about, as long as u truly know who you are. don't let small things bring you down. It's a waste of your time. those pple who love to hurt you thinks you're better then them and their jealous,that's the reason. gals you are respected and loved in ma heart.

holiday

2011-09-28T10:21:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeeee!! I'm enjoying the holidays! LOL eating, sleeping, eating lika PIG!! HHAHAHAHAHAH!! Drawing ma inspirations out! Kai If u read this, Just wanna let u know, your drawing is awesome! greatest artist ever!^^ fuuuuu yo! sell ur art! sure people will buy for a million bucks! heheheh! and I WAS SHOCK cause I wanted to draw a peacock on that day u were drawing it! scary! but didn't want to lol!

Anyways the holidays has never been better, giving me a lot of rest.. feels so awesome and stress free!! ^^ I feel freaking free and happy lifted off the ground despite family arguments lol! FOOD has never been more delicious!DAMN ma fucking temptations! gotta start losing alot of weight! don't worry I won't be an anorexia person no offense to anyone reading this.. today I was proud of what I did, I redecorated a jotting book's cover pages with random newspaper cutting..Don't wanna waste money.. it turned out like a real magazine sooo coool! lol! SORRY lazy take photo...and started pasting potraites of people I used to draw.. damn gotta start drawing Irfanah and Kai real soon in ma new "sketch book"..The last time I drew Irfanah, it screwed out to be a monkey lol! SORRY:( so I'm borrowing a photo form each of u all ok??^^

aaaaaaaaaand 1 more thing sorry ar pees don't be mad at me, rmb about that balloon u all gave? the stick broke:( I feel soooooo saaaaaaad!!! SORRY! but the heart is still safe! :(

accomplished

2011-09-23T02:25:00.000-07:00

Finally! our four days shoot is over! I'm glad we worked tgt as a team and acomplished what we had to shoot finsh! weeeee~ all those weird dreams about the film was worthy.. there were times where I didn't sleep at all.. ate at 1am and slept at 2.45am.. I always woke up during those four days.. I thought I was always in the film set with all the lights and shouting SILENCE ON SET, CAM ROLLING! ACTION! LOL! when I'm not.. Ma mum was waking me up, she got shock when I woke up sunddenly opening ma eyes wide! LOL! Sorry everyone If I've been a mother fucker these few days.. I was pissed at some of you.. sorry..:) but all the shit is over! NOW POST PRODCUTION! AAAAALL THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!^^ LOVE YOU ALL! lets just rest for a week 1st, then we can start stressing the shits that will happen during post production...

18th b'day 14.09.11

2011-09-16T04:59:00.000-07:00

What a horrible 18th birthday lol.. was SICK on this special day and had menses wow thx alot god lol! nah la I guess you must've had ur purposes.. Anyway Ma friends got me a mini chocolate cake, and a heart shape balloon so sweeet! ^^ they treated me to pasta mania! enjoyable lunch, Even though I was sick I still drank coke, don't tell anyone ok it's a secret.. shh.. sorry I didn't take any photos of it, lazy, and gobble it down too fast like a PIG^^ too delicious la.. can't help it^^

Ma family gave me the BEST BEST(SARCASTIC) celebration ever. I came out of the toilet, and ma lil brother stood up with a hong bao and wished me happy b'dae that's it LOL. and the hong bao wasn't even from him, it was from dad.. but I must say $100 is just awesome!^^ no cake no nothing lol! but only for your own son, you do everything nicely la.. now I understand lol. it's ok.. what a special b'day celebration, I wouldn't be surprise if ma 21st would turn out this way.. HEHEHEHE! every year get $100 WOOT RICH man! But at least I'm thankful ma family remembers ma birthday that's enough for me and I'm still smiling and laughing!^^

god

2011-09-11T04:48:00.001-07:00

Yesterday night was the most frightening prayer I've ever experienced... I've never in ma life believe in "god trans"...meaning god enters a human's body and people pray to him, ask for forgiveness if scolded for wrong doings..even ask for relevant desires or praise for good deeds. Ma cousin brother got a huge scolding from god, (we call this god Ayya) because he didn't focus on studies... Ma brother started crying uncontrollably because Ayya said" this is your last warning! I'll chop of your legs if u don't study properly! understand!)\ I still didn't believe any of it.. because the trans person was ma dad...But I got frighten, Ma stomach when inside out when he started whiping the floor violently!(beginning of trans) but his behaviour and movement made me think twice.. He was smoking weed, and holds a stick, his back is bend and looks as if he can barely see a thing. Ma dad doesn't speak excellent tamil, all broken tamil, he spoke excellent tamil last night... everyone had their turn to talk to Ayya.. all cried, no one could bare it. I was proud of ma sister because she was praised by Ayya, he said that she will never cause any problems to our family and is a very good soul. But he wants her to speak tamil and learn more about our religion mantras. He rewarded her with a ladddu(indian sweet) and blessed her..

soon it was ma turn.. I started crying uncontrollably because I knew I did many bad things.. I saw him close up, he looked like a total different person.>.< At this point of time I looked unglam with all ma mucus dropping. he said there's good and bad...I just had to tell the truth, I was stressed..I was STUNT to the max because everything he said about me was freaking true! and freaky!! There were many things he said about ma life but I can't tell as it's a secret sorry...there were many things he said to other people and I was REALLY STUNT.. but it's all a secert I can only reveal this much.. and so he forgave me and I fell on his feet. I'll try ma best to change into a new leaf(try)..

^^ :(

2011-09-07T10:51:00.000-07:00

I dunno why, but I've never been so HAPPY in ma life. I'm loving life now each day.:) laughing to the fullest, enjoying each funny moment which every min. I just feel so overjoyed, like something in ma heart has been accomplished.

I've heard about a Simei Ite student who committed suside by jumping from the 6th floor... ouch... girl, R.I.P and hope u're blessed up there... I wished you didn't do that because it was not worthy taking ur own life... Don't get mad.. I know I'm of no rights to say anything about you, but just hope that you don't come and haunt me la.. sorry ar girl R.I.P.

2011-09-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

GALS, I'm TRULY SORRY if I've hurt you with the truth la, please don't take it to heart, but that's how I really feel... Let's all forget that and smile, laugh, eat like PIGS everyday! Finally, the guilt is no more in me.. I'm guilt free. I feel so much better that they have read ma blog actually. :) thank god:) I promise never to do that again because it's stupid. Studio booking time cock up, but I was calm because we just had to shift the other dates. thank god I have calm and organized friends or I would've died long ago:) Now I'm all smiles and laughter ^^ Keke! I love you all so much! You all really made ma everyday wonderful that's what I look forward to... LOL today after school in the train, IRFANAH just made ma day(BOMB) LOL, the begging for her to do the retarded shake was worthy! HEHEHE! I literaly ROFL.. All the way home I couldn't help laughing to myself... LOL!
DINA , I'm reeeeallly very sorry for making you stress and almost wanna breakdown! sorry!! WE didn't mean it.. don't take to heart.. because I feel reaaaally guilty.. Just imagine Irfanah's fast retarded shake ok? smile! I love yooou! your template ar I use lol!! JUST to wake you up:D

And guess WHO I met in jurong Point while walking to bus stop? IT WAS MR JOEL! OMG, I was stunt because I didn't see him clearly, and he suddenly stopped and block ma way in the middle-.- I was like OH HEEEEY! HELLO! LOL! and he was like u live here meh? AKWARD CONVERSATION >.>...

Don't scold me, hug me instead...

2011-09-03T07:58:00.000-07:00

Ma three pees, I feel guilty not telling you anything about ma problems. It's not that I don't wanna tell all of you.. It's just that I have this mindset that it'll be a waste of your time hearing and solving what nonsense I have to say.
Irfanah, SO cute your blog! haha! thank you and you're welcome, I understand:)
Kai Zhen, I'm the 3rd person right? Thank you I know I'm a dumb friend you've ever had in your life, I'm sorry for spoiling that.. and I'm proud of how fast you've changed in a good way:)

Ok, Let me get to the point... I'm here to tell all 3 of you what is happening and why there are cuts and bruises all over ma body, because I'm not good at talking.. Just promise me when you read this, please don't get mad at me for being fucking stupid alright? I admit those cuts and bruises were not accidents, they were created by me. I used the comb again,back and forth I sliced.. till it bleed.. Ma left and right arm including ma knees area..I couldn't take the stress physically and mentally.. I'm sorry If you feel like punching, kicking or spitting in ma face right now.. I couldn't help it.. truly.. What I did is wrong! I know.. please don't scold me, hug me instead. I bottle up ma feelings because I don't want all of you to think I'm weak, I wanna be known as STRONG.

The reason why I did that was because I didn't know how to differ between our friendship and work. I want everyone to do all the paperworks as soon as possible, but I feel like no one's listening to me and If I tell all of you off or blow up, I'm afraid you gals might think I've changed ever since I was chosen as a director. I'm afriad, all 3 of u might think I'm not a good friend and you all might regret being with me. The other day when we were in the PPP lab, I was pissed, I went to the toilet and vent it on myself by scratching my arm. I'm afriad to hurt you all. I don't like to do that because I know the feeling of HURT. I'm SORRY, I TRULY AM...another thing ma family was ignoring me in the whole process... especially ma step mum, I felt really depressed, she never really cared on what I'm doing, she always look down on me. Everyone of you have your own problems to think about I don't wanna interrupt with ma own. I just wanna make you all happy in the process of venting on myself to make me happier. There were times where I really lost it and almost wanna commit susicde and die. I wanted to cut ma wrist till I bleed to death but it's not worthy doing that. I just feel ignored. sometimes I feel that I've gone mad, crying in the night and then suddenly laughing in the middle of the night. last reason, Ma step dad's health is decreasing very badly.. He can't breathe properly in the night and uses a oxygen mask at home(provided by doctor) to breathe when sleeping.. It's like all the people I love are leaving me.

I know all 3 of you must be very disappointed in me. But please hug me and give me another chance to change for the better because I KNOW I'm not like that. I just changed ma mindset and messed up ma entire life wasting ma youth years... I know you all care alot and worry.. I know kai scolds because she cares, I know irfanah asks because she cares same as Dina..Please forgive me.:,(

Disappointed yet thankful

2011-08-19T01:42:00.000-07:00

Confidence Quotes

I realize I've been very emotional these few days.. why? I dunno how to ans that.. maybe it's just me because, I feel like I'm not part of my own family. LOL I think I'm special because I feel like i'm leaving a double life. It's like god has given me 2 lifes for this "life game". somehow I feel like this new life is a 2nd chance. I want the pasts to be forgotten and move on to the future. I've learnt alot of things in life as I move forward in the game. It has been difficult, but I'll make sure I'll never use the words "give up" ever again till the day I die.

I'll make sure this film will become successful. Today u have disappoint me greatly.. But that ain't gon pull me down. The only people who I know never disappoint me are ma 3 gfs... because I sense their eagerness to complete it. Thank you I'll make sure U guys never regret being with me.:)

:(

2011-08-16T05:12:00.000-07:00

Nobody cares about me.. I wish some one would at least ask me how my day was in school...Or at least say a "hello"...My b'dae is coming soon and I don't even care about it, I don't wanna celebrate it at all... so annoying I'll just sit beside her graveyard and share a slice of cake with her. That will make me the most happiest person in the WORLD...I think even if I die nobody will even care at all... I'll make sure when the day I die you all will regret not talking or caring about me at all... It's as if I'm an invisible wall. sometimes I wonder if you all are pretending or really can't be bothered at all... seriously, the question is always stuck in ma head... And what is the fucking use OF being a director? I'm USELESS! I'M A PIECE OF SHIT... you all don't even fucking care what I am! why the fuck should I CARE? seriously your reply is a "k" still now I still find it really hard to believe you said that! WTF is wrong with you people? seriously! You yourself don't treat me like your own Why the hell should I? Who do you think you are? I am not a saint, I'm only HUMAN!

Irfanah's b'day

2011-08-10T06:10:00.000-07:00

You looked awesome on this day really, just like a rocker chic!:DD glad you loved the celebrations and everything! HAPPY 18th b'dae.. Love you many many... I'm really sorry ma present is not ready for you yet...:( later dish in ma face.. what if it turns out not nice and not enough for you lol! sorry..

2011-07-31T07:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the best thing that had ever happen in ma life!! It was so fun suprising DINA!! I hope u like wat we did! LOL! Happy advance b'dae! I enjoyed the food, everyones company! And u had a new look hahahaha!! top model seei! I'm ur no 1 fan! wooops! OMG that's a wig! FAKE! HAHAHAH!! But was lil disappointed that some of ma classmates and the YEP friends didn't come:( Because they were suppose to song her a song with guitar:( WHO CARES! IT was their loss! WE had FUN! PARTIED LIKE HELL!! AND DANCE RIGHT!!! ate like PIGS!^^ I hope we do this again some time!! and I would want to stay longer!^^ Thank god we had a pro to do the BBQing!! Or I swear the fire will start after Dina's b'dae is over lol! LOVE u many many Precious lol! I lost ma shades:( still thinking about it LOL because it was from HK! memories... But.. It was worthy just for Dina!

holding on to ma love for you

2011-07-26T06:02:00.001-07:00

Danbo Gallery

I NEED a hug

2011-07-26T06:01:00.001-07:00

Danbo Gallery

Yummy Monday

2011-07-25T05:50:00.000-07:00

hehehehe!! I love today:D finally pitch and RE-pitching is over!!:D Teacher told me that ma story was interesting but confusing... At least I tried ma best, ma hard work paid off! I just need to get ma actor to act out a scene and teacher might just gimme a chance:)

I can't help but smile so wide because teacher saved us from hunger:) we ate PIZZA!! HMMMMM YUUUUUUUUMMY!! Pizza you've been gone for so long.. now you've came back into ma tummy:) kekeke! There's just this one guy I'm so in love with now, he's just the perfect one for me, so hot, lovely.. I'm in love with you Chilli Chicken Mac Grill(Macdonald's burger)!! kekekeke!:D

FUCK

2011-07-18T02:52:00.000-07:00

OMG! FUCK! TODAY was just lousy!!! We came in late and could see teachers face were fucking black to the coooore!! She was like freaking piss.. But I know we are really wrong to come in late like this sorry, it won't happen again.. tmr is gonna be an even lousier day-.- sigggh... have to pitch in front of the whole lecture 3 fucking classes FUCK! should have pitched today!! FUUUUUUCCCCK!!! I can't belive I was stonning all the way from sch to home about it.. OMG... I'm imagining how fucked up I'll be tmr in front of everybody, and teacher just screwing me nicely infront of WHOLE 3 CLASSES CAN U BELIVE THAT!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!! SCREEEWWED!!

I just gotta thank god for giving me a day more to complete everything la.. thank you god! But please god, please I hope we don't have to pitch in lecture tmr... pleeeeeeease I beg uuu.. I've never felt sooo frighten like this in ma life.. please help me.... I might just break down and cry in front of everyone......:'((((((

W.O.W

2011-07-12T06:54:00.000-07:00

WOW, I feel much much better not textin or being in contact with you at all! pheeew! it's reaaally working! LOL! it's all thanks to ma friends that I forgot all about u.. have been laughing like crazies non stop, there's no need for laughing gas either hahaahaha! jokers, jokers thank you so much because yaw made ma day better each passing one...:D I really do feel happier, brighter and emotionally crazy!! hahahaha! I hope we will stay in touch forever ma friends:D

1st day

2011-07-11T06:47:00.000-07:00

Damn it, lol 1st day of sch has finally appeared.. The best lessons ever.. we were bascially sitting down doin nothing but laughing lol! And I'm queit stress because of the fact that we needed to do an advance script and storyboard.. How the hell can a person draw about split personality?? omg... I've finally come out with a story for it.. it's ma final decision for pitch.. Kai's story was simply just awesome laa, I can so imagine the scenes and everything.. I hope one of us gets to be the director.. so that at least we can help one another.. I hope kai gets it!:D Please laa Kai, your story is awesome we had a brainstormin session sure will work out one.... ya cher will say that, talk only no action-.-

Bukit Timah railway

2011-07-10T01:38:00.000-07:00

so yesterday was the most tiring day in ma entire life.. since the old railway track is gonna be demolish.. ma uncle decided to bring us there.. omg it was hot as hell! couldnt tarhan the heat... thank god I brought shades, or ma eyes could've been lunch for us... we took tons of pic.. I loved the place when the sun set.. it was an awesome sight to see.. we walk for 7km... the stones were irritating! leg cramp.. then we had to shop for a new pair of shoes for ma lil brother, cause about 20mins in the beginning his old pair tore lol! afterwards, we stop to eat at mac... I got a chance to eat the chocolate melts again! yuuuuum! hot chocolate just melts nicely in ma mouth:D

we also walk futhur in where there are old really old houses, I could tell that 1 of em was an indian house.. I guess japanese soliders broke in the house and ransack everything.. LOL ma lil bro and I squatted down and acted as if it was our house! LOL!

It's lovely, thank u pees

2011-07-08T02:55:00.000-07:00

Solo

2011-07-08T02:38:00.000-07:00

Heartbreak Quotes

I'm really tired really.. I'm like wasting ma free texts on you for nothing... It's like I'm doing all the work while ya not making an effort at all.. I realize this is not me, I'm not an emo kinda person, always cheerful even in bad times:DD soo, I give up, game over.. you won! congratz! I guess I'm ridin solo, I'm so sorry that it didn't work out, I'm moving on ~ lol I'll be having ma last cry tonight and poof! you'll be gone off ma mind forever!! But that doesn't mean we're not friends:) it just didn't work out us being a couple but still as a friend:) I assume that's how you feel about me too! Anyways, thx for at least giving me an experince on how a boring date is LOL!

ECP

2011-07-07T05:52:00.000-07:00

Today, we had lots of fun cycling, eating, chatting about dina and kai's cambodia trip.. laughing the loudest out of every lifeless people.. I never regretted anything about this outing. it was just beyond awesome! couldnt cycle in peace either, was laughin like retards too!:P at the end of the day it was really tiring, cycling for 3hours but I had a wide smile on ma face because it was all worthy with these god given gifts (three lovely idiots!) I enjoyed every moment of it! hmm.. I was smart enough to bring a camera lol..yay! I hope we all do this again sometime aite? Thank you so much for paying rent for ma bicycle irfanah and kai.. I apprecaite it much!!:D I LOVE YOU ALL!:DD

welcome

2011-07-03T21:26:00.001-07:00

Photography Quotes
HUGS AND KISSES! welcome back friends:D

Something borrowed

2011-06-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

So yesterday I went to watch a movie with CJ called something borrowed.. which is a romantic comedy movie.. usually I hate to watch this kinda slow movie.. but there was no regrets the movie was just awesome to the max.. we were the two people at the back laughing and omging the loudest!! LOL.. rate it 5 stars.. I think best friends or couples should watch it.. I feel like I'm in the movie.. like I'm one of the characters.. and friends if you were to ever like each other please tell or i'll be too late:) CJ you were a retard, seriously kissing a justin bieber music cd cover in the shop was insane LOL.

Thank you CJ

Missy

2011-06-26T20:46:00.000-07:00

Hmm, I'm missing Kai and dina so much! Wish they were back faster! I wonder what they are doin now? LOL throwing ants on dina so cuute LOL! How I wish we were all there together to have fun.. stuck at home like some bug..tsk... The thing that irritates me the most is having to sleep at 9.30 damn it! but who cares I'm gonna sleep late.. I wish we were out in a club right now singing we never wanna go home, just wanna have fuuuuuuun!!! JASON DERULO.. Kai and Dina, 2 weeks are like 2 years!! it feels that looong!! faster come baaaaaack!! I miss you all, loud laughters, bullying!! kekekekeke can't wait to see you all!

LOTS OF LOVE!

Boring

2011-06-24T07:42:00.000-07:00

OMG.. should've stayed in malaysia longer laa.. So fucking boring at home! Home is like a prison! I keep doin the saaaame routine again and again -.- damn it! What can u do at home? besides, eat, sleep, watch t.v, internet! omg.. Go out also need to come home early.. wtf.. so booooooring! I'm deciding for ma last project on what to do.. docu drama, on obsession or split personality??

Hold on

2011-06-23T08:23:00.000-07:00

Mama, please hold on! I know you can do it! please kugan needs u, we all do! God please help him.. I dun want him to suffer the same fate as ma mom did.. When attai told me u were in the ICU.. I was just baffled.. Will this happen twice? please don't let it happen god... Kugan is only 10.. it would be fucking diffcult for him to cope.. I know how it feels to see ur love ones in the hospital having a hard time.People scold you about ur size is because they want to see u till their death day... Hold on, fight!! never give up! I SAID stay STRONG! Because u have a reason to live!

Confused

2011-06-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

Dude, I'm confused big time! whats wrong with you? I seriously don't get u... I guess I'm no closer to you then i imagine us to be.. I guess u don't really feel the same way about me.. Why do you have to make it so diffcult for me..I'm only human.. I don't like playing guessing games..Thx for ignoring me when I try to text or fb msg you.. Please at least if u just wanna be friends tell me! EGO! bingo! won a million bucks! U guys are just more egoristic than gals are today!

Just because somebody flirts with you dosen't mean they like you.
Just beacuse somebody likes you doesn't mean they wanna go out with you.
Just because somebody wanna go out with you doesn't mean they love you.
Just because somebody loves you, doesn't mean they won't hurt you.
Because people lie, things change, boyfriends cheat, bestfriends ditch.
And there are gonna be people out there who would kill to see you fall.

Photos

2011-06-22T03:51:00.000-07:00

Check out ma facebook for more.. taniade_cruz@hotmail.com

Malaysia trip

2011-06-22T03:27:00.000-07:00

Finally I'm back! Our 1 week trip was awesome and boring! 1st day was boring like hell! 2nd days onwards was just nothing but fun! We went to cameron island! a peaceful place, stayed in Heritage hotel! awesome room. had a balcony which can go out and view the whole place..we stayed in for 3days 2 night. We visited the strawberry park, saw how they packed the fruits aannd I love the part where we get to eat em! yummy, chocolate cake with strawberry(chocolate sauce). Had strawberry smootie.. Next stop we visted the butterfly park! They were freakisly huge yucks! so many of them were flying around ,looked like bats! alot of insects basically(freaked me like shit). The flowers were beautiful inside out. thank god I took many pics of them..

After being stuffed, we went to the bee farm! but didnt really go in.. cost a bomb and ma dad was lazy to climb stairs-.- Last 2days were even boring.. beacuse the hotel they booked was shitty.. we had to change plans and change hotel..-.- the last day was interesting and holy.. cause we visted one of the most beautiful temple I've seen in ma life.. the baby sivan staue was huge! kali amma was so beautiful! all of the gods looked so real I feel like it's heaven.. In the end I accidentally deleted all the photos I took:( but had half of them left!! WASTED LAAA!!! I'M SOOOOO SOORRRY!!!

2011-06-13T03:05:00.000-07:00

Photography Quotes

Dina and kai, Sorry I wouldnt be able to send u guys off in the airport!:( Feel bad cause I really wanna do so.. Well, ma early regards before I leave. BON VOYAGE! Hope u guys enjoy every moment in cambodia! be sure to take photos and show us!:D I'll miss u guys lots! And Dina remember to bring your brain along! Kai ur haircut is cute, it suits you alot! don't be another Dina! LOL! I love u all a mucha as u all do:) Must buy for us something when u come back ok? nah jjk hahahaha!

2011-06-09T01:39:00.001-07:00

Heartbreak Quotes

Oh and I forgot to thank you for breaking mine. Thanks.

2011-06-09T01:10:00.000-07:00

Heartbreak Quotes
You have no idea how heartbroken and sad I feel right now.. I'm cryin ma eyes out... fuck you for not telling me u don't like me anymore... just fuck off.. I had to find out myself! fuck! after stonning and putting the puzzles together I realize that! the first time you said I was crazy for askin u whether u have a gf.. and you said if you had 1 you wouldn't be talking to me as much as you did.. Now u aren't so does this give me A BIG CLUE that you're having one now? Then why did you say you sortta like me? why did u ask me what if I was the one in future? why did we go out on our 1st "date"?? just why have u stopped askin me out? I knew it from the start you were just playin! I knew it! and the facebook status: how did we ever get this far? I think there's something more... I'm confused, was it for me or another gal? maybe ur're just having fun breaking girls heart cause ur ex did it to u.. it's ok I'll let u have fun.

sigh..

2011-06-08T02:33:00.000-07:00

I may look exicted and happy that june holiday has finally arrive! but deep down inside me,something is missing.. it's you.. I dunno why but I get so paranoid that you don't want me anymore.. I feel like you're seeing another girl.. Because I'm a bore, and I can't stay out late at night..Is it so? I dunno.. I think about you everyday! I'm just afriad.. because I'm in the last stage: LOVING you! At lest please tell me something, don't keep silent.. It's KILLIN me! Ma fingers itches each time I know space is what you need. But you keep telling me that you've gotten use to it.. When I don't text you, you'll tell me it's been a world guiness record.. You could've at least say a hello right? even if it's just a single reply, I would be the happiest person in the world.

Why are you doing this to me? I'm innocent, if you really like me you would give me a chance to prove that I'm a different gal. I thought you were different, but your silence just make me think twice. Maybe god is just tellin me to stop.. I feel cheated.. I will never fall for sweet talks(NO Guarntees) LOL.. I wish someone could cheer me up now.. kinda sad..

FUCKED

2011-06-06T05:07:00.000-07:00

DAMN IT! I knew something like this would happen!! just knew it! The exam paper fucked me back front and everywhere!! NOT only me EVERYONE! OMG!! I hope the overalls give me a passin mark:(! I feel fucked up.. Not only that I'm guilty that I had to use teacher's money just to buy a new uni for exam... She was really pissed.. I decided to write a sorry letter to her.. And gals I'm sorry that it was ma mistake and I put a black face.. sorry..

You've been gone for so long

2011-06-05T04:17:00.000-07:00

Finally June holidays are here!! So fast! Tmr is the last day of school! yes! I LOVE IT! Best part ma parents are in malaysia to attend a wedding for 3 days 2nights! they left today morning.. all the house to ourselves! ma brother went to stay in her sister's house, no fair can eat and enjoy lika PIG!:( I just can't wait for tmr to end! AND WE CAN PAAAAAARTEY!! I can't wait to gooo out, Irfanah planned an outing with our class and we all agreed with her giving her ideas too! XP BTW I gotta text from the auditions for singing talent.. I've waited so long for this.. but I'll have to let go of this chance.. I'm off to malaysia for the june holidays... I hope I do get a 2nd chance.

Altough I feel happy but something is missing...

:)

2011-06-02T04:20:00.000-07:00

OMG! finally STP test is over! I was relif but sad.. cause deep down inside I gotta feeling I'll fail...:( It was really diffcult.. especially the stupid fucking english! WTF! I can't even understand some of the questions most of the time I kept reading the same thing over and over again! DAMN IT! sigh.. at least we've all done our dvd covers.. I'm being depended on to pass it up by tmr..Cause I'm the only one die die have to come to school at 8 for dap submission!! damn it! Hopefully ma partner comes on time! The dap cd is with him-.-..

Just waiting for 6 june to be OVER!! AND I'll fly!!!!

Soccer

2011-06-01T08:11:00.000-07:00

ok.. soo just came back from choa chu kang stadium.. watch a live soccer match warriors vs skfc.. our family supports the warriors.. Damn stupid lol! now I understand why most singaporeans dont really support singapore teams lol! but at least our team won 1-0.. Lots of curse and swear frm fans when the refree was being unfair.. and when they didn't goal! lol! I laughed like hell cause, there was one point of time where the guy didn't kick properly, after when there's 2min left the guy played properly the fans shouted "AH! NOW THEN YOU CAN SEE!" lol! true wat!

Ma dad came and give the hamper prize to our team.. He sponsers coffee! At the end of the day I felt gulity, cause I didn't turn up for school revision!! damn it I just hope I can pass thats all I want! and then i can stop worrying and enjoy ma 1week malaysia trip!

Lousy but nice Friday

2011-05-28T23:29:00.000-07:00

So... I gotta last min text from teacher.. Irfanah and I had to go for interview in school at 2.30pm-.-.. WOW. Anyway, Got ready and was ON TIME to meet kai and Dina for lunch. guess what the biggest PIG Dina was later then all of us! LOL:) We ate Western food! awesome chicken chop la!Irfanah ate ice kachang, it looked tempting but was too full to fill anything else LOL.

it was time for kai and Dina to go for their balloon slupturing.. Since we had half and hour left we decided to sit outside the room, trust me u wouldnt want to lots of balloon popping LOL! must be them lA! hahahaha! we saw their balloons and it was soooo cuuuute! I WANT 1!XP

Guess what happened to our interview?? WE GOOOT IN!!! nah just kiddin, it was cancelled-.-.. I know right! So basically came to sch for nothing.. at least we came for the other two pees, that is all that mattered!:D We decided not to go for the postponed one.. quite irritated la..Thx Dina for waking me up, Kai sorry we didnt wait for you to go home tgt, Irfanah thank god we had each other for interview and it was cancelled!

I enjoyed our lunch<3

A sad story

2011-05-24T22:29:00.000-07:00

Derick:
I guess we are the left-overs in this world.

Lily:
I think so...all of my friends have boyfriends, and we are the only the 2 people left in this world without any special person in our lives.

Derick:
Yup, I don't know what to do.

Lily:
I know! We'll play a game.

Derick:
What game?

Lily:
I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days
and you will be my boyfriend.

Derick:
That's a great plan, in fact, I don't have anything to do
much for the following few weeks.

DAY 1:
They watch their first movie
and they both are touched by the romantic film.

DAY 4:
They went go to the beach and have a picnic. Derick and Lily have their quality time together.

DAY 12:
Derick invited Lily to a circus and they ride through a Horror House.
Lily was scared and she thought she touched Derick's hand but she actually touched someone else's hand they both laughed.

DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road, and they asked for their future advice.
The fortune teller said:
"My darlings, please don't waste the time of your life, spend the rest of your time together, happily." Then tears flowed out from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:
Lily invited Derick to go to the hill
and they saw a meteor; Lily mumbled something.

DAY 28:
They sat on the bus, and because of a bumpy road Lily gave her first kiss to Derick by accident.

DAY 29:
11:37 pm:
Lily and Derick sat in the park where they first decided to play this game.

Derick:
I'm tired Lily...Do you want anything to drink? I'll buy you one...I'll just go down the road.

Lily:
An Apple Juice, that's all. Thank you.

Derick:
Wait for me.

20 minutes later
A stranger approached Lily

Stranger:
Are you a friend of Derick?

Lily:
Yes, why? What happened?

Stranger:
A reckless drunk driver ran over Derick, and he is in critical condition in the hospital.

11:57 pm:
The doctor walked out of the emergency room; he handed Lily an apple juice and a letter.

Doctor:
We found this in Derick's pocket.

Lily reads the letter and it says:
Lily, These past few weeks, I realized you are a really cute girl, and I am really falling for you-your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game. Before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life.
I love you, Lily.

Lily crumpled up the paper and shouted:

"Derick! I don't want you to die-
I love you; remember that night when we saw a meteor and I mumbled something. I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and that we would never have to end this game. Please don't leave me Derick .. I love you! You can't do this to me!"

Then the clock strikes 12...

Derick's heart stopped pumping...

It was the 30th day.

Boredom

2011-05-24T22:19:00.000-07:00

Yes! I feel much relaxed and stress free.. finished DAP phase and theory test! Thank god it's over! The best thang that made me squil and jump was teacher saying that today no school!! yesssa!.. Hmmm... :) Now that I'm relaxing at home.. I feel kinda bored:( Cause I'm AT HOME!! Which is a boring place..! I wanna watch movie.. It's been a loooong time since I've watched 1.. Ma friend's so lucky he get to watch a movie every sat!

T.v has nothing but bullshits..-.- Damn it.. LOL I don't wanna text him everyday, wanna give him space.. I've eaten, watch t.v, check facebook, using blogger now...What tooooo doooooooooooooooooo??? Actually I can't wait for this day to end.. wanna see those 3 pigs.

YAY!!

2011-05-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

Yeeeeeeeeeessa!! Finally Today was the laaaaast shoot for STP!! I'm sooo glad that it's OVER! AND OUR HARDWORK PAID OFF!!!!!:DDD The ART work was just MARVELOUS!!Teacher said so ok! kekekeke!!! I love the t.v it was sooo cuuuute!! the two antena sticking out! HEHEHE!! all thx to the boss KAI!! hip hip horray!!:D

Thank you Kai, without you we might've gone haywire LOL! love u lots:)

Dad's b'dae

2011-05-20T08:54:00.000-07:00

I feel soooo happy!! :D Today morning, EARLY morning(6.30am), we did a B'dae breakfast for dad!! He was suprised!!:D He really did enjoy it a lot! I was overjoy because at least I did something for him!! I don't have sch on fridays, but still I woke up 6am just to make it for him!! We all sang the song for him while carrying it out from the kitchen LOL best epic part he was sleeping AHHAHA!!

We went to eat at a Thai seafood restraunt for dinner.. Awesome!! tomyum soup, sweet and soup fish, kang kong, lovely chilli crab, fried baby squid.. dessert was incrediblely great!.. Thx Dad,goddad and mom..

Happy Birthday Dad:)

B.I.T.C.H

2011-05-18T05:04:00.000-07:00

Firstly, you're a CUNT.
Secondly, WTF, did I do to make u do this to me?
Thirdly, I think I've been very nice enough for u to stay in ma house before, when u were sortta "HOMELESS"...
Fourthly, DON'T FUCKING USE MA NAME anyhow! DON'T act as if you know me so well. DON'T FUCK with me... I'll make sure I'll FUCK you back if we were EVER to meet! If you act dumb as if nothing happen, I'll make your life a living HELL BITCH!
Lastly, Please go and search for the word Hypocrite in the dictionary AND go find an ettiqute class that teaches you the meaning of standing infront of ma face and talking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CRAZY

2011-05-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

LOL! Tried.. having back ache... standing and quating a million times lol! But I enjoyed our artwork today! it's a holiday spent well with this 3 lovely pees! love u all much! I made a really wrong choice to wear white today LOL! I thought I was in the safe zone.. I just had to OPEN MA BIG MOUTH.. All 3 PIGS nicely attack me thanks ar for giving me clourful tattoos ROFL!

At the end of the day we had to clean up, literally using soap and water to wash the floor LOL! Irfanah talk big only, I dunno how to sweep off the soap riiiiight, look who's talking! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Lovely Idiots <3

Jokers

2011-05-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

OMG!! Today's STP lesson was BEYOND EPIC!! ROFL! I can't stop laughing!! Seriously, ash and the others are just bunch of fucking JOKERS!!! Making us feel really stupid!! THANKS AR!! HAHAHAHA! WOW tricky questions!:D Thanks for making the day even better for me!! appreciate it much! And Teacher right after you said we didnt bond enough as a class, we just did during that lesson! in ur face..

Thanks jokers<3

Trust

2011-05-14T00:03:00.000-07:00

What do you think about when u see the word "trust"? Someone you love truly should be in your trust list.. I guess I'm young and new to these kinda "love thang".. Although the person doesn't text you everyday, doesn't mean he does not like you.. I asked Dina and stonned about it, realizing that it's just ME... I told myself that he is only human not a robot to text every single day..

I followed Dina's advise not to text him till sun.. guess what it worked! he really bothered to text me saying:"Wa!today record! didn't text me!:P" I was MAJOR DISH to the MAX LOL!! I felt like I was being lifted off the ground for a moment! LOL! HEHEHEHE! Let's just wait and see what happens next..

I guess I'm always this paranold is beacuse I don't get much love from ma family... All I want is LOVE..

Thanks Dina<3

Happy mother's day

2011-05-08T04:04:00.000-07:00

Sighh..still crying in the night alone when everyone's asleep.. Seriously still tryna WAKE up and tell myself to face reality.. Mother's day is just useless when she's not around... so whenever friends talk about that beautiful day I just keep silent feeling guilty...

Maybe god just loved her so much that he couldn't see her suffer too much... I just want her to be happy... I blame myself for not showing her so much of love...Ma mom did everything she could just to make us happy.. not once did she complain.. The thing that disturbs me alot is that she never had happiness in life.. Mummy, Happy mother's day... You can't count the love I have for you..

WOW, and to ma 2nd parents.. thx for not telling us anything just walking outta house planning to watch movie on mother's day.. Appericate it lots! I guess we aren't your family at all. Thx for not loving us and just taking care of us for pity sick. I am GREATFUL..

;(

too paranoid?

2011-05-07T23:05:00.000-07:00

LOL.. Gotta feeling I'm being too paranoid.. cuz he has not text me yet from midnight till today afternoon:( usually we'll say good night to each other waaat.. I'll usually text him in the morning just to greet him.. but he didn't reply:(( I guess he is really busy.. cause he told me that he has been lately... so this is the 2nd point a gal has(paranoid)when in love! 1st point is being all lovey dovey and retarded!! LOL!! But If he didnt text me for weeks how?? Does that mean he's not interested anymore?? I'm startin too feel REAALLY paranoid and scared...... waat will happen next???

:(

first date

2011-05-07T07:20:00.000-07:00

weeeeeee, after so many weeks of me not being able to go out.. Finally today we went for our 1st date:D I was on cloud 9!!! hehehehehehe!! LOL when we met it was kinda awkard.. Didn't talk much.. step shy only ass! hahahaha! We took pics indivually.. I like the part where we took a pic tgt ^^...kekeke after we came back from singapore flyer place, we started talking.. thx for annoying me ar ass hole!!! sorry I wasted your time, because we had 1 hr to spent..:( sorry next time I'll try to convince for a longer time ma dear.. I hope we go out again!:D

........

2011-05-05T07:02:00.000-07:00

I wished I could tell you how much I love you... But am scared to love... You were in a realtionship before and the break up really affected you. If you really have that strong love feeling you would give me chance..We could just try.. Nothing wrong in that..I love the fact that you make me smile whenever we meet..

Please don't ruin anything in our small start.. Still, I think it's just meee..Paranoid.. LOVE has misunderstandings, aruguments, pain, shits, awesomeness.. I gotta feeling I'm still not READY..I neeeed heeeelp!sigggh..

Don't worry, I'll wait for you untill your fear of falling in love is over!:)

Sch

2011-05-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

WOW. For the 1st time in history I cried just for sch! Fuck! I come to school everyday for what? for u to come and fuck me in the back is it? then y am i being debarred frm exams?? My as well party out instead of stressing there everday right!! Fuck, I hand in work on time, come for lessons on time and I'm being DEBARRED! WTF?! I REGRET going into this CB course!!!!!

And 1 more thing! If u don't know the full story, come and talk to us don't dance around the bush like some DOG! no fkin professionalism beacuse u let ur personal problems get mixed up with sch! so much of respect!

Love life

2011-04-27T07:19:00.000-07:00

ma love life..... I'm not extremely sure if he's the right guy for me.. I can't be 100% sure if he likes me..He had 3 EXs, wasn't really relationships he claims.

1st gal: Texted but didnt go well and never met at all in 2 mths.
2nd: texted, met 3 times in 3 months only.. didnt go well.
3rd: met everyday, relationship lasted for 10 days cause the gal was being a whore.. going after other guys when he was busy.
so am I gonna be the 4th??: text everyday, met on some occasions.. then wat? gonna break ma heart?

I don't know! I'm scared of falling in love, seriously.. I hate misunderstandings! Its one of the most irratating and embarrassing thing you could've ever experince..What if he just wanted to play play with ma heart?? and not be in a serious relationship..? cause the 2nd meeting home we hugged..I'm SCARED!

I love ma 3 closest friends a lot, whatever they say I keep it in ma head..like what they told me :I'm going too fast with him.. Ma loves are right, and it make sense! Should get to know him better.. I realise I sound so despreate replyin him darling when he does, I mean i don't have to do that what! wait2 the best thing is now he has a new word "honey"! hahaha we're not an item yet! Thx loves for telling me I really needed that because it's ma 1st time :P Yaww are like ma family. luv yaww so much..

Retards

2011-04-27T07:09:00.001-07:00

LOL!! LOL!! LOL!! today was the BOMB! HAHAHAHAHA!! WOW LOL, I was veeeery early for class today! champ ar! where's ma award? hahaha!Kai is the earliest la too excited for sch everday! HAHAHA! Dina I dunno where the hell she was I think she took a trip to space after so long finally replied ma sms, i realise she was back to singapore.. Irfanah nicely asking who else is gonna be late.. LOL after that still got more entertainment dap lesson THE DUMMEST award: DIIINA! THE SMARTEST award: suprisingly Irfanah hahahahaha! Couldnt stop laughin!!

SHIT

2011-04-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

Today, was the MOST SHIT day ever!!! MA whole fking team screwed up! LIKE SERIOUSLY wtf!! She told u she was burning something right!? then aft that when she came in noone needed any help!! WTF! ur the director can't u guide me on wat the fk to dooo for vision mixer!! OF COURSE i'll get tense laaa i can't CHILL! when I'm in this stutiation!! CB! ur fucking lucky I didnt scream shits at u! ... SIGH.. everything is over we can't do anything about it now.. gal I'm sorry for you.. and sorry that i couldn't do enough to console you much.. forgive me ya..

Art Work, makeover, Drama

2011-04-23T05:26:00.000-07:00

Sigh.. Tired, laughing and laughing out loud.. Almost done all our art work..Had so mucha epic and awesome time with those 3 pees.. HAHAHA our Make up expert did a makeover for KAI!! The results: KAI , u look fucking hot, I'm turned on!! HAHAHAH! So BEAUTIFUL! after that photo session with Kai(the model):D.. then We had drama with Irfanah and Dina!! SOOOO EPIC OMG!!.. 6 takes of vid.. Finally we did it and ROFL!! ^^

Not fated

2011-04-21T23:12:00.000-07:00

How could this be? I thought we had a chemistry?? did I misunderstand you? I guess we were never meant to be.. I'm trying ma best to forget you.. I thought I was strong, but had sleepless nights.. I dun wanna break another guy's heart because of u. I don't understand guys at all.. Then why did u care, hold me and lay on me? did u treat me like a sister, close friend oor a fucking hooker? maybe god has someone even better reserved for me.. I'm sooo freaking confused with LOVE! It's the MOST diffcult mood to deal with! OMG! I keep thinking about yooooou! I feel sooo disgusted with myself! I'm just another broken hearted girl.....

You're the one I want

2011-04-19T05:12:00.000-07:00

Sigh.. I can't stop thinking about you!! When I think about you, I'll keep smiling non stop.. I dunno y.. no one has ever made me feel this waay.. I know I've lots of crushes before, but YOU are the one that I wanna be serious with. I love you.. You've stolen ma heart sweetheart.. I hope you feel the same about me.. I'm waiting for u.. When I'm down, all I have to do is think about y and I'll be happy!! I love you lots cutie..How I wish you would tell me the same right now!:D Boy ma heart's on fire cause of ya.

HK trip 1/03/2011

2011-04-03T00:54:00.000-07:00

I hate this day.. we are gonna leave Hong kong.. sooo fast y y.. We had breakfast this time ma morning was different they bullied me!! hahahaha but I love the fact that we all laughed together while bullying me.. We took coach bus to airport, shop a lil.. we all wanted to see how much our luggaue weigh, mines safe 17 kg.. others weigh alot hahaha! then we went around the huge airport, sit down chatted..

it was time to board the plane.. I didn't feel lonely cuz I gotta friend beside me!!! yay! MA boarding pass seat 54 E shuay ar the last time also same num! wau lau! hahaha! I ate nicely.. 3 45 hours later we reached singapore at 10pm.. I called ma mom, she told me to wait for her there cuz they havnt come..=.= It was all a lie cuz i didn't realise it was april fools day!!! Ma friend Nat hugged ma and cried shes really missing us all! I'm so sorry that I didn't bid goodbye to each and everyone of u.. I seriously love u all.. I'm missing all of u right now.. Thank you Mr chua and Ms April for taking care of us.. and Thank you ms veron for giving me this once in a life time oppuninty!

HK trip 31/03/2011

2011-04-03T00:44:00.000-07:00

OMG its just one day and we are leaving HK!!!!! so fast!! I don't wanna gooo.. Its free day today buuuut, Ms april has install something for us! we went to a building which is of how they develope film rolls, colour grading.. they're rally expensive so they recycle them using chemicals.. each time a person checks the colour of the film roll they have to do it three times a day!! its an amazing thing for us becuz we don't do this in singapore we are all digital.. a lady brought us around the studios, recording area, foley area... cool shit laa.. and they were so kind to give us drinks in classic bottles.. thx Ms april! I really had fun and learn something out of it. after that, some of us decied to gotta mong kok to shop of items..

soon night came and we all head back to hotels.. I swear in the night we all were retarted.. watched movies and laughed like shit awesome laa.. I'm gonna miss all of em..

HK trip 30/03/2011

2011-04-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

Today is FREE DAAAY! .. the design students get to shop.. soo waat hahaha.. we went to PIXAR! this time was awesome noe y noe y? cuz I get to wake up late heheheh! the pixar place was great we saw many story boards of the movies toy story, monster , cars.. how they got the idea of the characters.. they went on to many stages before they got their final character.. animations were brilliant.. I salute them all, the drawings were really beautiul, hardwork and ideas paid off!

we celebrated ms april's birthday as an advance! her face was freaking priceless ahahahaha!! Cuz mr chua lied to her saying that 6 students are ill, 2 students having diarerroa and nat having nose bleed hahahahaah!! all of us were getting ready in her room(714) to suprise her!! that was the most epic day ever.. and soon after that its all free night fina and i went to 734 to have fun we watched movie together and laughing like mad..

HK trip 29/03/2011

2011-04-03T00:37:00.000-07:00

We got ready, after breakfast we went for a talk at HKDI about different types of cameras.. Presentation on the defination, model.. ARIFF. They showed short clips on normal shots and ARIFF model being used.

after that we decied to have our own free time, some students went to Mong kok to shop others like ma friends and me went back to hotel to have a good rest.. of course I slept like pig..

HK trip 28/03/2011

2011-04-03T00:34:00.000-07:00

By now I think fina feel like kicking me to wake up hahahaha!! I still couldn't get over how retarded we were in disney land!

so after breakfast we went to HKDI, watched some short films shown by the HK teacher..The flim was great from the visual effects to the sound!!! quality was just awsome and clear!

HK 27/03/2011

2011-04-03T00:06:00.000-07:00

7th day, Having a really hard time waking up LOL... I'm not a morning waker.. I'll be sleepy while having breakfast LOL! I wouldn't be lisening to you when ur talking to me.. hahaha.. Todays the BIG DAY!! We visited the PO Lin Monastery took the cable car up thank god I didn't lose ma ticket or I'll have to climb 500 steps to reach there!! I swear I freaking regretted not wearing lots of layers!

it was seriously COOOOOOLD!!! We got into the cable car mind blowing views laa! took pictures! we could see people climbing steps to reach there.. we finally reach saw the buddha! huge! an awsome thing happened it rained-.- it got much colder!! walau we needed to climb another 200 steps I swear when i climbed I seriously felt like dying! we were all breathless we could see mist coming out frm our mouths playing with it hahaha!

After that guess where we went??? DISNEY LAND!!!!!!!!!! we had frm 3-8.30pm woot!! I swear I had a freaking amazing time there!!! we went to every stations, tommorrow land, fantasy land, adventure land.. fina, ka leong, aaroon and I was the 1st to gotta tmr land. we played the roller coaster FREAKING DARK AND FUUUUN!! I choked and screaaaaam!! hahahaha!! lots of twist and turns!! I said it still feels like a dream in disney land and ma friend pinched me that freaking hurts thanks ar!! night came and we ate fish burger in one of the cafes.. at 8pm we watched the amazing firworks.. beautiful works laaa.. I was just mesmerised!!

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HK trip 26/03/2011

2011-04-02T23:46:00.000-07:00

6th day, We visited our first location which was a chinese temple Wing Tai Sin.. Just freaking amazing! there were two huge dragon at the entrance..Freaking croweded you get shoved everywhere!! it is a belive that touching it gives you good luck so we all did that as we entered the temple! The inside of it was really croweded!! we had to walk fast.. took many pictures! We saw the 12 zodiac animals staute WE are the rooster! haha! we saw how the chinese people pray, kneeling down shaking a box of sticks..

our 2nd location we visited was Avenue of the stars! Awesome.. the scenenary is just incredible.. we took lots of pictures.. handprints of famous HK stars were taken too.. Our fav is bruse lee and Jackie Chan I think they were the only 2 we know of hahaha.. unfourtunately the bruse lee staue was not build yet.. soo sad.

It was time for our next visit: the victoria peak.. we got our tram ride tickets.. everything looked slanted as we were brought up(is it me or the tram hahaha) it's a one way ride to the place.. Basically its like a huge shopping mall.. freaking cold up there! damn it should have wore 3 layers!! I bought a handbag for ma mom and 2 pair of earrings for myself,they are beautiful!:D

Next up Ladies street night market!! Oh gosh I love this place! you can buy things at a very cheap rate of course we gotta use our bargaining skills! I bought lots of fav things thats I don't have.. we were there for about 5 hrs.. after that we were all freaking hungry so chinese students and malay got sepreated.. they went to the halal corner while I got nicely bullied in the non halal corner thx ar! hahaha

HK trip 25/03/2011

2011-04-02T23:39:00.000-07:00

5th day, I think by now ma room mates are fed up of waking me up hahaha!..after breakfast we went to HKDI.. learn about their courses, the HK teacher in charge of our media course lecture us about their industry.. what they do, pre production, post production.. Everything's the same the difference is that their courses are much more advance then ours.. instead of using digital they do film rolls.. post production, cut and paste.. colour grading..

HK trip 24/03/2011

2011-04-02T02:28:00.000-07:00

4th day, we learn about how film rolls were made..in A MAchine since singapore is all digital, it's amusing to see them cut and paste the films together post production! cool shit..

HK trip 23/03/2011

2011-04-02T01:53:00.000-07:00

23/03/2011

3rd day of trip, sigh still gettin used to the weather...>.< cannot tarhan siaa..Tired laa no coach bus to HKDI-.- so we took MTR (that's wat they call it here) everyone's tired cause we had to change train.. frm shatin(where we stay) to the sch.. 11 HK dollars-.- back to shatin is 14 hk dollars can u belive that! After that we went for a talk about the media industry..

Too tired we went hotel to sleep, bought food and ate here siok arr!! Almost slip and fell in the bathroom sia now i noe y mr chua said don't use it like ur grandmother father's!! hahahaha

HK trip 22/03/2011

2011-04-02T00:47:00.000-07:00

22/03/2011
2nd day of trip, soooo freaking COLD!! Freezer sia! it's 10 degrees here hotel's cold too..I made new friends:) regretted not bringing 2 jackets and more food-.-
ma room mate really got a hard time waking me up! hahaha! tryna get use to the weather and waking up so darn early.. got ready ate breakfast buffet..

ROW CALL at lobby, transfer to HKDI.. omg the sch is mind blowing! FUCKIN huge.. they are building the longest escaltor in there.. very friendly hk students and funny too hahaha!! made friends with 2 of em name PO and Maggie :) We all went for a tour in the sch( 7 FLOORS!!!) the sch has many different course like ours the difference is that theirs are more advanced.. The hair styling, fashion clothes, gaming, media department.. the students are really freaking creative la.. we were like wow wow at everything.. we had lunch there...

Since the muslim students wanna go to the halal place I decided to follow them..for dinner It's at Tism sha tsui..where there's islamic center.. there's even a mosque! IN the end we ate mac-.- cause the people irraited us and felt cheated... hahaha

HK trip 21/03/2011

2011-04-02T00:26:00.000-07:00

Today is the daaay!! I got ready and waited for ma dad! I was really frking excited and scared( 1st time maaa) YAY FINALLY I'm getting the chance to board the airplane!!:D aiya people frighten me for nothing sia, the ride wasn't even scary laa! wau lau.. The food was good but too little la.. at least i was full, chicken rice, bread, biscuit, ice cream.. Jealous? hahaha! It took 4 hours to reach Hong kong..

So after settling eveything(passport, taking lagguae) we got into our coach bus to hotel(Riverside)I was really amazed, the hotel room was not what i had expected! Ma room mates were christina and Fina all retarted people! hahaha1 king size bed and 2 single bed.. we are speical got a sofa:)

HK

2011-03-18T04:33:00.001-07:00

O MA GOSH!! time flies like an areospace.. It's just 2 more freaking days to hk!!! ahhhhhh!! So excited!!! can't wait to see the hotel room and everything just awesome!! I've packed ma stuff in lagguae ord!!! WOOOOOT! Gonna have soooo mucha FUN!! I promise, swear, and promise that I'll be in a good mood and hyper monkey in this trip!!! YAY!!!!:D

JAB

2011-03-07T21:59:00.001-08:00

SO finally i had ma jab after searching for the damn block clinic! at toa payoh.. Ma num was 13 (I'm not that supertisous ok). each student went in and came out quickly I was queit shock at h0w fast and painless(ma friends said)it was.. Soon it was ma turn.. I was calm but the doctor scared me saying that this jab will be pain walau I swear I almost start shivering laa..

Can just keep mum about it and just poke me riiiight? When he inserted the needle I turn away and closed ma eyes real tight lol I was extremly nervous.. I could feel the needle tip poked into ma skin and then all the liquid started flowing in..queit gross right I noe. aaaaand then I died! nah just kidding...Its not pain actually-.- Being over dramatic. eveything was over and I walked out happy with a numb left hand..

Flu jab

2011-03-07T06:03:00.000-08:00

OMG, tommorrow's ma flu jabbing thingy for ma hong kong trip.. LOL I'm like anouncing to the entire world bout it.. I feel scared actually.. with no one to support me except teachers and other friends from other class who I'm not close with..I know I've had jab before but that was a looong time ago and ma friends were there for me...I'm chop chop 100 percent not going back to school.. I'll surely feel weak!!.. so wish me good luck.. hope I don't die from it LOL..

work

2011-03-03T05:21:00.000-08:00

I finally feel like a BIG weight has been lifted off ma shoulders!!! after getting jobs done... but I shouldn't be toooo happy, cuz there's another 1 called assignment 2 and 3.. Just thinking about it makes me queit stress actually.. We'll be deciding which roles we WANT! NOT given! well let's just see what'll happen on our next meeting then...